Saturday, 11 October 2014

Heavy Sweetness Ash-Like Frost: Translation (Chapter 18.2: The Constellations are Moving)



   In the final part of chapter 18, we find out why Jin Mi did not marry Night on the fated day...... as Jin Mi slowly learns, sometimes getting what you thought you wanted does not actually make you happy.


Chapter 18.2: The Constellations are Moving (Part 2 of 2)

   The third day of the third month is when Spring returns to the land. As all the creatures awoke from their winter slumber, what they look forward to the most was the wet spring rain. But, all of them were destined to be disappointed this year. 

   With the passing of the Water God, where will the rain come from?

  "The Heavenly Emperor has given an edict!" A proud immortal attendant announced himself in a hall full of gods crying their lungs and hearts out, "Jin Mi Immortal to receive the edict!"

  I gave out an affirming sound and knelt down to receive the imperial command. 

  "The Water God's passing has caused the whole world to cry. The Water God had always loved all creatures in the realms and used his divine energy to help many living things. He will be given the title of Benevolent Holy God. Jin Mi is the Water God's only child and will have to fulfill her filial duties and guard his tomb for three years. Her wedding with Night will be delayed for three years. Finally, Jin Mi will be treated as a god from henceforth and inherit the title of the Water God!"

  
  "Jin Mi receives the edict!" I received the holy edict.... although I had finally fulfilled my dream of becoming a god, but my heart felt strangely empty.

  In one night, I gained a Water God Daddy.

  In one night, Water God Daddy's soul disappeared from existence.

  It was like the thin spring rain in April, before you could even touch it, it would disappear in the glow of spring, it caused one to doubt if what you saw was real. 

  Once again, I returned to being an orphan.

  I held the willow ice blade in my palm, the wintry coolness seeped into my bones, the hall was filled with sesame yellow and plain white, the colours of mourning. Facing the many gods who had came to mourn for my father, I was in a daze and said numbly, "If Daddy did not use half of his divine energy to make this willow ice blade to protect my body, will his soul not disappear when he was struck by a poisonous blow? If I only knew earlier... if I only knew earlier..."

  Night held me in his arms and lightly stroke my back, it was exactly like how my Dad used to comfort me, "Even a thousand gold taels cannot buy foresight. Jin Mi shouldn't be upset, I am still here, the Water God will also not want Jin Mi to break her heart over him."

  I looked at him dazedly, "break my heart?" What is heartbreak? My chest only felt a little heavy, as if a big rock had hit my chest. I think my body is only a bit tired... and I will feel better after a rest.

   At the side, the Wind Goddess was in the mourning clothes of hemp, her gaze was calm as she lit three incense sticks and kowtow three times. She then silently sat at the side to receive the condolences of the various gods.

   Although the Wind Goddess was Daddy's matrimonial partner, I actually hardly saw her. She did not stay at Luo Xiang manor and although she was married to Daddy, in truth, they were actually forced to be married by the Heavenly Emperor and were only partners in name. Both of their personalities were cold and distant and they hardly met except for important events in the Heavenly Realms. If I did not see her today, I would have almost forgotten her existence.

   The young immortal child at the door was announcing the gods that had entered to give their condolences when he paused... it was not clear who he saw, but he increased the pitch of his voice and cried, "His Fire God Highness has come to pay his respects!"

  I turned back and my eyes hit Phoenix's gaze which did not have its usual arrogance. Phoenix was in a full robe of white, his hair tied up, no adornments or accessories on him, he took the incense sticks and walked to the centre, finally stopping before Daddy's clothes and bowing down to give his respect. His expression was solemn and sincere. I saw his thin long fingers holding the three incense sticks... I knew that in the middle of his right hand was a callus* from where he held his writing brush, and another callus from how he held the sword... Night lightly kneaded my palm, and I felt my body stir slightly and my mind regained awareness.




  After Phoenix finished paying his respects, he spoke in a low voice to the Wind Goddess. It was not clear what he said but the Wind Goddess nodded her head.

  Night brushed my forehead and I was about to turn my head back when I felt a gush of wind, Phoenix was now in front of me, he lowered his head and looked into my eyes with a rare warmth, and spoke to me in a voice that only came a hundred years, "Please let go of your sadness and find peace. His Great God loved the Flower Goddess his whole life. Although they could not be together in life, they must have wished to be together in death. To place the Water God's clothes next to the Flower Goddess' tomb, so that they could be together, shoulder by shoulder, overlooking the Water Boundary where they first met, what do you think? I asked the Wind Goddess for her opinion and she said she had no objections."

   I obediently nodded my head. 

  Night lightly patted the back of my hand. Phoenix looked at Night's hand, his expression flickered between light and darkness, his brows tightened, the ends of his eyes stretched. 

  "I will definitely help you find who killed the Water God."

  "I will definitely help Jin Mi find who killed the Water God."

   Phoenix and Night both spoke at the same time. They were truly brothers in harmony.

  I smoothly nodded my head then quickly shook my head, "No need no need. What good is revenge?"

  "You!.... Ah..." Phoenix gave out a long sigh, he stretched out his hand as if he wanted to pat my head but his hand retreated half way. The spring sun landed in his palm.

  There was a gush of wind and the white ceremonial papers that did not have any weight to press them down started to fly and scatter.

  "Has Phoenix's body recovered?" I quietly looked at Phoenix.

  His eyes shone as if his mood became good again, "Much better. I had fully recovered a few days ago."

  I gave a light affirming sound. Phoenix was truly the strongest Fire God ever, within a month he had fully recovered from such a serious injury.

  Seeing that I remained silent, Phoenix added, "I found a shoe outside my palace," He paused then continued, "It was not an immortal pill, but it was even more effective**."

  I fell into my own thoughts and did not delve into the fact that the first half of his words did not match the second half. Night lowered his brows, his expression cooled.

  After the seven days of the funeral, I returned to the Flower World and buried my father's clothes. Before I left, I visited the Temple of Matrimonial Bliss to take away the spring paintings and love books the Moon God had given me earlier. I would have nothing to do while I guarded the tomb for three years, I might as well carefully study what he had given me to pass the days.

  It was a little boring to guard two bald tombstones. Whenever I was bored, I would plant some flowers and trees. Lately, my favourite was the camphor tree because it had thick dense leaves that were luxuriant and bloomed in all four seasons. When the wind blew through it, it would make a light "sha sha" sound and lightly shed green and red leaves, creating a beautiful sight. I liked to carry an umbrella*** and walk through the falling leaves. Hearing the leaves fall on the umbrella sounded like the falling rain, resembling the rain formation that Daddy would create.



   Humans always said that the human shadow will not follow the passing river. Even as the water heads towards the east, the human shadow will remain. But why even as the water has not lessened, I can no longer see Water Daddy? 

  I studied some destiny life formations from a book from the mortal realms. I realised that my destiny was too hard, I was born to harm people--- harm my dad, harm my mother, harm my husband, harm my child... in all, I would harm everyone around me.

  Sigh! I was truly dangerous! 




*Also known as a corn. 
**Phoenix found Jin Mi's shoe and knew she visited him while she was injured hence his cryptic confession in front of Night - your shoe was more effective than any medicine. 
*** In case anyone is wondering, the writer was referring to the olden time oiled paper umbrellas:



Comments: The actual title of Chapter 18 is The Passing of The Water God. I chose not to use the real title for the translations because I thought it would be too much of a spoiler. I thought it would be good to experience the sudden passing of the Water God just like what Jin Mi experienced --- in one night, she gained a father, in another night, he disappeared. 

Now, who hurt him? Will Night or Phoenix find out first? 

Jin Mi learns that becoming a god does not actually answer her problems. In fact, she is still running away from her heart. 

We are heading towards the next climax! May the best god win! 

24 comments:

  1. *excited*

    Super thanks decembi!

    -samie

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  2. thanks. this chapter came in timely and best birthday present for me today.....

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  3. hahah decembi when I read the first few paragraph I grasp when I read about Water God's passing. I actually had to paused and click on 18.1 to see if my memories was deteriorating. Sigh being impatient and not reading on, silly me. >.>

    I just realised Phoenix is like Hu Quo Bing for me, for some reason why remind me of each other in certain aspects. Thanks for the chapter <3

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    1. I know! It's very shocking and sudden! But, it was written quite well by Dian Xian I think... reflects how Jin Mi herself can't quite come to terms with her grief.

      Yes, they are both passionate, loyal and wild <3

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  4. Thank you decembi! My heart is racing for the next chapter.

    Lola

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    1. Welcome, Lola! The next chapter is so so so so difficult for me to translate emotionally.

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  5. I was so surprised by his passing. I also went back to read 18.1 again to see if I missed anything haha. This is my first time commenting after lurking for a while, but I just have to say this has become one of my favorite books. Jin Mi's thoughts are hilarious as she is so oblivious to everything around her. I am firmly on the Phoenix ship but Night is so intriguing. Thank you so much for taking your time to translate this. It's such a pleasurable read (in fact I've read this twice so far) and I can't wait to see what happens next.

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    1. Thank you for your support and encouraging comment! Chapter 19 is truly the chapter that continues to change our perceptions! I will try my best

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  6. I just devoured this translation in one day. I don't think I've ever laughed this much while reading an ancient novel translation. That, and all the audible sighs from some of the things the two male leads say. I don't know how true you're staying to the author's words or taking poetic license, but it's all working. Thank you. I will continue to faithfully await the next update.

    Em

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    1. Hello Em, wow one day! I try my best to stay true to Dian Xian's style, her writing is even lovelier in mandarin ♡ though i suppose a part of me gets put into it too! Thanks for your encouragement!

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  7. Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Water God Daddy :( my ultimate bias in this novel. I had to go re-read it. But it''s all true :(
    Well I hope in the next chapter things turn for the good?
    Rooting for Phoenix. Night is discreet and indecipherable. Eh, at least I can see a bit why he does things the way it is ...still Phoenix's too awesome. :D
    That camphor tree picture is nice, I like how green it is xD compare to the trees where I am. Fall makes everything turn ablaze, like a phoenix. :P

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    1. I feel you!!!! Water god was my favourite too ♡ it's the perfect guys that never last! Chapter 19 is rock solid with a heavy Phoenix focus!

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  8. I'm not gonna lie, but when I read the first couple of paragraphs, I had to reread and focus more. And when I finally grasped that the Water God passed away, I cried and cried and cried. The songs that I currently listened to were not helping, I had to paused reading and wiped my tears in my eyes. God.. This is one of the times where I have my breakdown. :( I feel so sorry for Jin Mi.

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    1. Awww let me envelop you in a big warm hug! My heart broke when the Water God passed away too. <3

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  9. Thanks for another great chapter. The water God's hit me like a sudden lightning struck and the booming sound of sudden thunder.

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  10. This chapter has stricken me emotionally as I remembered my dad's passing. It was more than 10 years ago but there are moments like this when I can still feel the piercing pain of the loss like it just happened yesterday. I had to stop several times while typing this post because it gets blurry with my tears.

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    1. Dear Grace, thanks for sharing such a personal story. I want to give you a BIG hug. I understand the inconsolable loss - the unfillable breach. I just want to tell you that your comments have brightened up my day so much and added a lot of beauty in my life. Thank you. <3

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  11. this was such a sad chapter- i didnt expect Water God to die. The only consolation is he will finally be united with his love in life after death.
    I feel sad for Jin Mi who still has the unfeelng pill in her- in that she wondered what is heart broken- she feels the emptiness and heaviness of her father's passing. but she isnt weeping out her grief- i hurt for her. Hurt even more when she says and thinks of herself harming everyone around her.
    I have now very high regard for this author- there's this depth and poignancy in her story without being overtly outlandish, soft and thought provoking in so many scenes.
    are there other works from her that is this good, and about the sane tone like heavy sweetness?

    n ps thankyou again for translating this novel

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    1. Dear Sharren,

      Yes, it's really sad! I always pray for the Water God and Flower Goddess to be re-united in whatever form they are now in :).

      Aww, I'm so glad to read that you hurt for her. I also hurt for her - and I tried to translate that in the story.

      She has two other novels but they are much weaker for me than Heavy Sweetness, which is why I've never translated the other 2 :)

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